Arriving home felt really good. It was comforting to see familiar places and faces. Some things have changed but things still smell the same. The reverse culture shock has not been exactly what I've expected. The first time driving (going 30 felt like flying-roads here are so flat!) and the first trip to the supermarket (how many types of bread do we really need?) were overwhelming but I've adjusted to some of that pretty quickly. Things I've noticed in the past few weeks:
-how fast we go... seriously people, slow down!
-how much I'm loved and missed
-how at ease I feel when I can understand everything without effort
-how it feels to be out of place on the inside instead of on the outside
-how hot the water can get
-how important gratitude and letting go are
-how delightful it is to be hugged repeatedly
And now, in the blink of an eye, it's time to say good-bye. I feel grateful to have so many people that are so hard to say good-bye to. Struggling with sadness and excitement, mixed with packing stress. I know I have to leave, that somehow I will and it's where I'm supposed to be but sometimes even doing what you're meant to do is incredibly difficult.
But honestly I'm looking forward to expanding myself, my heart and my relationships. I'm looking forward to spending more time listening and learning and working hard to be a better teacher, a better friend, a better person.
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